dear uncle,

dear uncle,

010409, you left.

i miss you,

i saw you, lying there in your hospital bed.
you were struggling, suffering, dying.

when uncle richard told me that we were letting you go, i kept holding on.
i just couldnt believe you were going, it was too soon.

i kept thinking to myself, a miracle would happen..i just knew it.
you survived the whole day, then night came along.
one hour passed, and another and another.

when i finally reached the hospital sunday night.
i looked at you, you were sleeping.
i kept staring at you.

auntie them finally told me to sit down and eat.
so i did what they said.

galen and i couldnt eat,
we were uncomfortable watching you laying there.
as we knew, that tonight was the night,
so we went outside in the waiting room to finish our food.

as we were talking, we talked about you.
how great of a person you are.
how famous you were.
how much we would miss you if you were gone.

galen had school the next morning,
so we had to leave so quick.

as i walked in your room,
i looked at the faces there.

i saw sadness, grief, anxiety.

i couldnt take it,
as i said my final goodbye..i touched your hand for the first time.
i didnt want to let go, i wanted to stay by your side.
i didnt want to leave you.
i wanted you to stay with me.

i said out loud goodbye,
as my heart screamed i love you.

i walked out of the hosptial,
thoughts of you quickly ran through my mind.

i got home, wrote a blog.
as i posted the blog..my brother knocks on my door.
he tells me youre gone.

tear after tear ran through my face.
it began flowing like a river.

it took hours for me to stop.
and finally i fell asleep.

and a day passed since, i thought of you.

uncle, i wish that i had a chance to get to know you more.
i wish i took time to sit and talk about our day.
i wish i asked you to tell me stories about the old days in the philippines.
i wish that god gave me more time,
i wish that god gave you a little more time.
but its too late now.

you may be gone physically,
but youll always remain in my heart today, tomorrow, always, and forever.

time it took to and from the hospital 10-20 min.
time it took to get food and drinks for family 10-15 min.
time it took to visit you 30 min-1 hour.
the heart to heart moments and talks we had TIMELESS

dear uncle,
i miss you.
thank you for being there for me,
supporting me through thick and thin,
im sorry for all the disappoinments i put you through.
im sorry that i wasnt able to get to know you sooner than i did.
but i promise you that ill make it up too.
i love you uncle,